Choices were refreshingly narrow during my work with AmeriCorps. I only had to think about getting out of bed, navigating my team's issues, doing grunt labor for FEMA, and finding something to do after work. My chores had to do with relationships — for as complex as the human psyche is, at least my shovel only had one direction to dig. Now the shovel has split since the program has ended, and I will continue working with FEMA as a writer for their "self-improvement" program. A dream job for the productivity-minded in me, but the end result of submitting improvements into the abyss of U.S. bureaucracy is existentially questionable at best.
So I must turn inward as I seek direction in the short-term. My creativity must also be destructive for caution of stony corners. The world is so wide, and the walls are so tall, and I must only go the way I have destined myself to. But it is so easy to wallow in complacency; that is why my heart flutters, as comfortability in long bursts weakens the soul and I must reflect on what muscles have withered and which have strengthened. I am 24 years old and with so many possibilities brought about by opportunism and privilege and luck and outlook. If I see the end already, I must have done something terribly wrong.
Fortunately, I see no end but a beginning. So let's begin!
I have for so long wanted to bury myself with a pen and paper, but the computer is the tool for the future. My approaches to philosophy have hit bedrock — I need to look far and wide for bits of knowledge that perk the ears and bring new insights to how one becomes what they are.
Machine Learning - Natural Language Processing (NLP)
How fascinating that an algorithm can now be trained! It learns to improve its given task — the key to understanding human interaction and communication is learning how one expresses themselves. Natural language Processing began with a very utilitarian purpose: to determine sentiment out of sentences. This allows media companies like Facebook and Amazon to understand the ins and outs of the consumer. Product reviews, political statements — all will enable natural language processors to predict behaviors of consumers and place advertisements or create whole products that will satisfy them.
But the subject as consumer is but one approach to utilizing NLP. Can we utilize these processors to help us understand ourselves as learners, as intellectual bodies? Already algorithms have insights into how short and long-term memories help contextualize the meanings of words and sentences. Can these breakthroughs be used to understand how one can improve themselves, or possibly augment themselves into something different? So many questions! The answers will arrive as statisticians and mathematicians and programmers band together to create algorithms that will push the qualitative sciences further than they ever have: the archaeologists and anthropologists of the future will laugh at the second-hand ways their progenitors felt for conclusions.
Music Production — Footwork and Dance Genres
I've spent years dabbling in music production, utilizing tools like iPad apps and Logic Pro X to compose pieces that seemed larger than the tidbits I added within them. The future of music is transcending economic value and that's where pure alienated creativity can enter. Uncaring about marketability, likability, accessibility; the future artist will develop works unto themselves. The modern art market has already moved into this unintelligibility — and look at how the common people sneer! They look back toward classical ages for their validated art, willingly contorting for the aristocracies and bourgeois that determined what is artful. Thus the individual creator can produce in peace, unbounded by the common and mundane and attract only the cows that wish to look from the ground.
Philosophy and China
Perhaps my goals are to pre-empting the rolling of the ball, looking for what the future will hold for those untimely ones. The present is unendingly fascinating as it overcomes itself. These skills I want to build are to enhance what I have right now, to augment myself into a hybrid of my contemporary and futuristic natures. Perhaps my goals will lead me astray, into the dead-ends that I for so long have dreaded. But that is why I focus on destructive forces, not just creative! To say Yes is to say many small No's, and I will continue to transform my Yeses based on glistening principles, water-like and ready to flow uphill in any size or shape.
China has become my second-greatest uphill struggle. For I must recognize a national externality of myself in order to appreciate the strengths that the country represents, as some of those strengths are hitherto considered not only weaknesses but evils to Western society, and especially American. And there I find my largest obstacle to overcome, to bridge Western and — not Eastern, but — Chinese thought into the future of international relations. For the philosophy of the future is more than internationalist, it is a globalist beyond the hollow word it is now. It is an immoral, ecstatic globalism that I am predicting, and with countries like China to embrace. But there are so many obstacles that will allow this reality to become; so I must read further into the China question, for it is not the nation that is important, but its philosophy, which has hints of an unheard of futurism, and I want to capture this.
Three pillars of thought: scientific and technological, creative and destructive, philosophical and international. For 2018, these are the themes I want to better understand, the themes I want to tie into one larger framework that I will keep to myself but unleash bits of as time passes. My present is captivating, with so many actors on the stage, with entertainments beyond what Hollywood could provide. The future is thus no less engrossing, and that is where we immoralists, globalists, ecstaticists will thrive — a narrative beyond survival or existence but of excess — in knowledge, manipulation, and self-discovery.